When God Calls

“Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it.  And God has placed in the church first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then miracles, then gifts of healing, of helping, of guidance, and of different kinds of tongues.  Are all apostles?  Are all prophets?  Are all teachers?  Do all work miracles?  Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues?  Do all interpret?  Now eagerly desire the greater gifts.”

In the New Testament the criterion for being called an “apostle” was being chosen directly by Christ and having witnessed the risen Christ.  Many theologians believe Paul was the last apostle that meets this criterion, but one who has the gift of apostleship means being “sent out”.  However, both types of apostles were confirmed by signs and wonders (2 Corinthians 12:12).  According to these same theologians an apostle called directly by Christ doesn’t occur in the modern world because we have the Bible to determine God’s truth, so a person chosen by Christ for God’s purpose is not needed in the world today.

However, God wills what He wills.  God’s purpose will be revealed the way He chooses, and is not inherent in our limited human understanding.

I have been chosen and called by Christ for God’s purpose.  I have had numerous interactions with the risen Christ and His blessed Holy Spirit.  God has blessed me with visions and prophecies since I was in my early twenties. I am an apostle, but I am not a man.  I am an apostle, called by God for His purpose, and I am a woman.  God has blessed with the gift of teaching, but I am a woman. God has blessed with the gift of prophecy, but I am a woman.  God has blessed me with wisdom and knowledge, but I am a woman.  He speaks to me from His high mountain, and lets me see.  I am the servant of the most Lord High.  I am his handmaiden.

My calling was confirmed by signs and miraculous wonders in my church.  However, those signs and wonders were documented by the Pastors, and withheld from the congregation.  Pastors and Ministers of Christian Churches – Where is your God?  Why do you not believe God exists?  Does God exist?  Is God dead?  Your behavior shows you no longer believe God is watching.  Your disobedience indicates you no longer believe.  You take more than your fair share of donated monies, you engage in sexual immorality, you have become Satan’s tools to scatter the sheep.  You are masters of the darkness, manipulators of the truth, a dry spring.  God sees, and has let me see the sin and disobedience of the Pastors within the church where I was called to be a Pastor and Teacher.

A Woman


Judges 4  Again the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord

 Now Deborah, a prophet, the wife of Lappidoth, was leading Israel at that time. She held court under the Palm of Deborah between Ramah and Bethel in the hill country of Ephraim, and the Israelites went up to her to have their disputes decided. She sent for Barak son of Abinoam from Kedesh in Naphtali and said to him, “The Lord, the God of Israel, commands you: ‘Go, take with you ten thousand men of Naphtali and Zebulun and lead them up to Mount Tabor. I will lead Sisera, the commander of Jabin’s army, with his chariots and his troops to the Kishon River and give him into your hands.’”

 Barak said to her, “If you go with me, I will go; but if you don’t go with me, I won’t go.”

 “Certainly I will go with you,” said Deborah. “But because of the course you are taking, the honor will not be yours, for the Lord will deliver Sisera into the hands of a woman.” So Deborah went with Barak to Kedesh. There Barak summoned Zebulun and Naphtali, and ten thousand men went up under his command. Deborah also went up with him. (4-10)

The first sentence in Judges 4 is “Again the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord.”  During this time period most of the Israelite men had fallen away from following the one true God and had become weak.  God’s chosen people were disobedient, and had drifted into sin.  So God raises up a strong woman to lead a successful battle against Jabin King of Caanan and his military commander, Sisera.  Barak is commanded by God through Deborah his Prophet (and first female Judge) to lead ten thousand men up to Mount Tabor, but because of his lack of faith and weakness in God’s providence for battle success, God allows a woman to take the honor of the win.

This song was written and sang after Deborah’s success:

The Song of Deborah

“When the princes in Israel take the lead,
when the people willingly offer themselves—
praise the Lord!

“Hear this, you kings! Listen, you rulers!
I, even I, will sing to[a] the Lord;
I will praise the Lord, the God of Israel, in song.

“When you, Lord, went out from Seir,
when you marched from the land of Edom,
the earth shook, the heavens poured,
the clouds poured down water.
The mountains quaked before the Lord, the One of Sinai,
before the Lord, the God of Israel.

“In the days of Shamgar son of Anath,
in the days of Jael, the highways were abandoned;
travelers took to winding paths.
Villagers in Israel would not fight;
they held back until I, Deborah, arose,
until I arose, a mother in Israel.

God chose new leaders
when war came to the city gates,
but not a shield or spear was seen
among forty thousand in Israel.
My heart is with Israel’s princes,
with the willing volunteers among the people.
Praise the Lord!

10 “You who ride on white donkeys,
sitting on your saddle blankets,
and you who walk along the road,
consider 11 the voice of the singers[b] at the watering places.
They recite the victories of the Lord,
the victories of his villagers in Israel.

“Then the people of the Lord
went down to the city gates.
12 ‘Wake up, wake up, Deborah!
Wake up, wake up, break out in song!
Arise, Barak!
Take captive your captives, son of Abinoam.’

13 “The remnant of the nobles came down;
the people of the Lord came down to me against the mighty.
14 Some came from Ephraim, whose roots were in Amalek;
Benjamin was with the people who followed you.
From Makir captains came down,
from Zebulun those who bear a commander’s[c] staff.
15 The princes of Issachar were with Deborah;
yes, Issachar was with Barak,
sent under his command into the valley.
In the districts of Reuben
there was much searching of heart.
16 Why did you stay among the sheep pens[d]
to hear the whistling for the flocks?
In the districts of Reuben
there was much searching of heart.
17 Gilead stayed beyond the Jordan.
And Dan, why did he linger by the ships?
Asher remained on the coast
and stayed in his coves.
18 The people of Zebulun risked their very lives;
so did Naphtali on the terraced fields.

19 “Kings came, they fought,
the kings of Canaan fought.
At Taanach, by the waters of Megiddo,
they took no plunder of silver.
20 From the heavens the stars fought,
from their courses they fought against Sisera.
21 The river Kishon swept them away,
the age-old river, the river Kishon.
March on, my soul; be strong!
22 Then thundered the horses’ hooves—
galloping, galloping go his mighty steeds.
23 ‘Curse Meroz,’ said the angel of the Lord.
‘Curse its people bitterly,
because they did not come to help the Lord,
to help the Lord against the mighty.’

24 “Most blessed of women be Jael,
the wife of Heber the Kenite,
most blessed of tent-dwelling women.
25 He asked for water, and she gave him milk;
in a bowl fit for nobles she brought him curdled milk.
26 Her hand reached for the tent peg,
her right hand for the workman’s hammer.
She struck Sisera, she crushed his head,
she shattered and pierced his temple.
27 At her feet he sank,
he fell; there he lay.
At her feet he sank, he fell;
where he sank, there he fell—dead.

28 “Through the window peered Sisera’s mother;
behind the lattice she cried out,
‘Why is his chariot so long in coming?
Why is the clatter of his chariots delayed?’
29 The wisest of her ladies answer her;
indeed, she keeps saying to herself,
30 ‘Are they not finding and dividing the spoils:
a woman or two for each man,
colorful garments as plunder for Sisera,
colorful garments embroidered,
highly embroidered garments for my neck—
all this as plunder?’

31 “So may all your enemies perish, Lord!
But may all who love you be like the sun
when it rises in its strength.”

Then the land had peace forty years.

My Calling

God called me to be a Pastor in February 2014.  Like Peter, I immediately laid down my nets (closed my Photography business) and responded to His call.  I have not looked back, and have stepped into His will and purpose.  I am no longer a sheep, but a Shepherd.  I am to lead His sheep into safe pastures.  I am to reveal spiritual truth that has been hidden and open the eyes of the blind.  The visions and prophecies given to me by God for the church were ignored.  God is telling me Jesus is at the door, and now is the time for repentance.  Turn back to God, my brothers and sisters or it will be too late.  I am a woman calling out in the wilderness pointing the way to God, and the pigeon in the mine which is the first sign of the coming disaster and destruction.

God chooses whom He will choose.  God chooses a leader who gives all the glory to Him and pursues righteousness.  God will choose a woman for His purpose as He wishes.  God is sovereign!  God is the Almighty One, the Creator, the Alpha and the Omega. His will, and only His will, will be done!

God is revealing to me that you Christians who are falling away from God, and being disobedient are losing His spiritual blessings.  God is sending me to the Muslims who are believing.  You Christians who raise yourself up in arrogance and pride will be bowed down, and the Muslims will be raised up because of their obedience.


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